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|Monday, April 24th, 2006|
|today i pissed my pants during arithmatic class
i was expecting today to suck royally. Concidering the first thing i saw at at school today was a disdainful look from grace, but she wrote me a letter that basicly said "your an asshole and you dont understand anything." now as much as i dislike using letters to commune feelings i did anyway. I returned a letter that basicly said your a pathetic shewhore who is ungrateful and lame. After that we got along fine...wierd...? During long block dan and i snuck out and watched VH1 and ate speggettios. I then went back to school and he showed me some Blood Brothers songs that were pretty rad. The rest of the day went kinda slow but it was alright. After school ended i went to the mall picked up kingdom hearts and got job applications for Hot Topic, Spencer Gifts and Newberry comics. When i returned home i with haste became enthralled with Kingdom Hearts 2 and i likez it, its pretty good, i dont hate it, and i dont not like it.
WANNA HAVE A GAMING PARTY LYNZ???!!! Current Mood: Pork Staple in Gut Locker
|Sunday, April 23rd, 2006|
so i guess the depression im feeling wasnt just from the pain killers, god i love my predictable emotions.
|Wednesday, April 12th, 2006|
|Tuesday, April 11th, 2006|
|Today Was Lame
today was a little lame i guess. I learned how to drive standard from a priest, which was pretty cool. This particular jesus rabbi has exceeded my expectations on the whole cool guy spectrum. When i got back i got a call from joel so i stopped by his house and gave him some hillbilly heroine(its a code) we talked for a bit and i left so i could finish my assignment so i could go to a movie with colleen, well when i called she was apparently still at laura's house, whatever. So i finished and while talking to billy he mentioned colleen mentioning not wanting to ditch me or something before she left to laura's house but ummm...i guess she did. Not gonna lie, a little bit offended, a little bit bitter. Would've been nice recieving a call or something canceling but ummm...nope Current Mood: my hair is floating
|Sunday, April 9th, 2006|
|Things That Rocked About Yesterday
-Going to accepted students day at Lesley University.
-Meeting lots of people at accepted students day at lesley.
-Being one of three guys there.
-Noting that there were only like 4 ugly chicks.
-Getting a new cell phone.
-Going straight to Garrets house afterwards to go see Wolf Parade.
-Finding a super good cheap Mexican place in providence.
-Being the second group of people to enter the venue before the show. Sitting on a speaker that was touching the stage.
-staying there for the entire show.
-Being Introduced to the band Holy Fuck, you should check them out. Specificly I am talking about CHRIS GROSS, COLLEEN, LYNZ, maybe TED, definatly DAN ASHLEY.
-Seeing wolf parade live.
-Getting One of the guitarists chimes that he was beating on during the show.
-Going home and getting some good fucking sleep. Current Mood: Rad
|Tuesday, April 4th, 2006|
So i have decided to embark on an endevour to further my incredible awesomeness. Now i feel that ones abode should reflect their personality in all ways so i have decided to try to make my room as cool as me, which bear in mind, is EXTREMELY difficult. The philosophe behind the decor is chaos and beauty. In another words im gonna totally cover my walls with photos, magazine clips, posters and other random shit. Then i will redo the decor in a new more radical style. Because as you all know i am radical! Lastly i will add in take out and rearange furniture to fit my current fancy.
Actually Reasons For Redecoration (I'm Putting On My Serious Face Now):
1) I incidently do want my room to show who i am, and black and blue walls just doesnt cut it anymore.
2) As much as i love my room, i just want to make it perfect
3) I want a more chill place to get high in
4) When i go off to college i want my room at home to be kind of a sanctuary, so when i get annoyed with the college's constant activity (which i enevitably will every now and again) I can return here and really feel at home. And at a radical home!
I will post before pictures soon, then after pictures WAY THE FUCK later Current Mood: Tired, been workin all day
|Tuesday, March 28th, 2006|
|my anger problems
i wrote a long angry entry for this but i thought of something better.
. Current Mood: like the american phsyco guy
|Monday, March 27th, 2006|
I stayed home from school today because i fealt really sick in the morning. My parents assumed i was depressed and that there was something going on at school that made me want to not go. This is untrue. I enjoy my school life well enough. I mean recently there are a lot of things i want to change and people i want to see hanging from trees. Big deal though, i have learned to understand the problems im having and tomarow i plan on putting them into effect. Current Mood: annoyed
|Sunday, March 26th, 2006|
very good discussion with lynz tonight. I feel a lot better at least for now.
|Yesterday Was Cool
Last night me and skim hung out. We ended up driving out to Dedham massachusetts to get some warm crispy creme doughnuts. They were fucking good. There were like 20 black kids though, and two kids who wish they two were black. Now i know of a few people who will probably get mad when they read that and mention it too me in either an appologetic or angry manner tomarow but allow me to say preemtively "GO FUCK YOURSELF IN YOUR POLITICLY CORRECT CUNTS! AND FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO LACK CUNTS THEN IN YOUR FUCKING ASSES" Yes these children were indeed black and acted in stereotypical ebonic fashion as well. One of them even burst into a verse from a ying yang twins song for only a few seconds. If i have maintained my morality this long and am still not actually a racist they have brought me one fucking step closer. Anyway, we then drove home and i do say the doughnuts were delicious and so was the conversation with skim. But on the way home and for a while once we got home...home being the moonbathing parking lot. On the way i did what i tend to when around people i can trust with conversational freedom. I started bitching, i bitched about my many love interests including grace who i think i am started to really be over and after 3 years i say to you god "IF YOUR THE AUTHOR OF LOVE YOU SHOULD WRITE FOR FUCKING HARLEQUIN BECAUSE YOUR WRITING IS DRAB AND PREDICTIBLE!" I had a good time with skim. I just need to get over myself because this journal is turning into what i feared it would again.
Now look what ive done, ive made myself angry again. Current Mood: FUCK EVEERYTHING
|Saturday, March 25th, 2006|
|The Matches & Motion City Soundtrack
tonight was really good, went to the show. Saw motion city soundtrack, one ok band played before them and one rad one called the matches. I met the singer from the matches and chilled with him for about 1/2 and hour during which i met richelle. I walked up to her and said "i dont put myself out that often (lie) but i just wanted to tell you your rad" good first sentence. We kinda hit it off, we made out she had a tongue piercing and a lip piercing they fealt good. She gave me her number but i lost it in a pit, which isnt all that bad. At least i have the boost in confidence that will inevitable fade when i return to school and everyone makes me feel like shit about myself. Im melodramatic! I also lost my car keys, which i later found at the bar. Something made me think of anna too, so i called her told her she was rad and that i was thinking of her and that we should hang out. I think i want to hang out with her alone this time for a number of reasons. Not all of which include hooking up with her exclusively. Infact thats just one reason. We got out of the parking garrage free because this nice asian guy was there and when i rolled down the window he just waved and said "dont worry man, your all set." It was super rad. Tomarow im hanging out with skim which should be really fun. I love being happy like this its been a while since i had a sober day as pure and amazing as this one. Current Mood: Chocolate Chipper
|Thursday, March 23rd, 2006|
God, i know i dont pray a lot, but i assure its not because i dont have reason too. Its because i dont believe in you, your just the subject of this internal conversation im having via lj. I hope you dont mind, but i know you wont. Your not real. I've been kinda in a rut recently. Been smoking a lot a lot a lot, and when im not high i get pretty pissed off. Im started to blame the people around me for my more obvious flaws, i think their kinda creating self fufilling prophecies for me to adhere to and truth be told god its pretty fucking lame. almost as lame as that time you didnt save the jews from the nazis, you are supposed to like them right? Current Mood: I hate god
|Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006|
i feel as though i may be developing minor anger issues.
|Tuesday, March 21st, 2006|
today was a little lame, i was kinda angry at nothing all day. I want to see colleen like i planned to but to much work. Lame... Current Mood: Fuck it man
|Sunday, March 19th, 2006|
|This Weekend and Tomarow
So today, i did virtually nothing. Played video games pretty much all day with the exception of watching some of goodnight and goodluck with the rents, didnt hold my interest though. I was pretty tired, maybe on another day it will be better. Yesterday got stoned with kids from concord, and sebbie, it was pretty fun we ended up driving to staples and looking around. It was pretty rad. The day before that i smoked and drank with ted, that was probably a bit more fun. Its not that i dont like meeting new people, i just wasnt in the mood to establish relationships with random hippie kids. Tomarow i hope to hang out with colleen, i am thinking very hard about something very interesting we can do, because our hanging out is getting pretty routine. Home-Mall-Home, Home-Moonbathing/Auchwitz-Home...ya we need something new and sadly enough im having trouble thinking of something cool, ideas thus far are)
1) getting drunk/high at the harvard pond
2) chilling at the harvard pond
3) Cartoon Jamming
See i suck at this!
Your Favorite Anti-Hero Current Mood: I guess im ok
|Wednesday, March 8th, 2006|
i was accepted into lesley, lesley is my top choice school. i feel like the life i have here is now dying, and another one is coming. I say that and it sounds like im complaining but i can't begin to express how excited i am to leave here. So so so so so so excited. Current Mood: Lesley here i come
ok man so im kinda krunkin it up in school right now in school. drank gatorade and bicardi 151 before school...prabably like a total of 3 shots in it. So i fealt good. and i feel good, i still feel good. I will feel good today. Fealt like tired yesterday but i feel super rad now super super super suer super suepr speur sdu[er RAAAAAAAAAAAAAADICAL. chillin and smoking with sebbie agter SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOl today and that should be wicked cool man...black tiger out. NIGGA!
"negro children are black" nicole egan
-and it aint no lie Current Mood: Get krunk get fucked up
|Monday, March 6th, 2006|
i find it kind of wierd how the friends you really work for never really end up becoming your friend and the people you are indifferent to flock to you...what the fuck
god i want her so fucking badly!